Spring Spring Spring is here!

Okay so i'm just a little bit late but yes Spring is finally here! Spring is easily my favourite season. Nothing beats seeing tree leaves starting to grow back, warm days where you can wear pretty floral dresses and drink cold lemonade! Oh and not to mention, my birthday! So here i've gathered a few piccies to get you in the mood for the beautiful season ahead!

 Uh, hello? Who doesn't love the sight of pretty cherry blossom tree in full bloom?!

 Young love. We all want to experience it. Unfortunately not all of us gals get to. Let's keep in mind ladies there is going to be one incredible prince to sweep us off of our feet. It's just all in God's timing.

 Garden parties! This picture is so lovely. So creative.

 Cute pink dress. Check. Cute ladylike heels. Check. Cute bag in tow. Check. This outfit pretty much sums up Spring! The colour palette is perfect. Not too harsh on any skin tone and very appropriate for the sweet days ahead!

So lovelies, that's another post from me! Stay yourself pretty ladies.

Love Amanda,

xoxo.

Humankind has not woven the web of life.
We are but one thread within it.
Whatever we do to the web, we do to ourselves.
All things are bound together.
All things connect.
~ Chief Seattle, 1854 ~

 Being a massive of anything Native American related, i thought i'd share one of my favourite Native American quotes. Everything about their culture, history and people is so fascinating to me. It's definitely a dream to go to a pow-wow, meet an elder, eat some frybread...you know, traditional stuff like that. When i think of such a thing dying out and the youth not embracing it, it breaks my heart. It's such a beautiful thing. I pray that this history and rich culture are never lost. I think 'The Reel Injun' documentary is something to watch. It's how Native Americans are portrayed in Hollywood and how far from the truth it is. Such an interesting documentary. Oh well, i'll stop blabbing on lol. Stay yourself guys.

Love Amanda,

xoxo.

So, it's 12:24am. I can't sleep, thankyou insomnia. I'm tired. I have no idea why but it's hot & i also have so much on my mind. I don't even know what i want to write. Maybe a hello to my followers first seeing as i haven't updated my blog in like 2 months. So hey guys! :) Hope that you have all been well. I think right now...i feel like ranting. I have no-one to vent to in real life. So i hope it doesn't bother any of you if i let off a little steam, if it does i'm truly sorry and i can guarantee you won't see another one after this. Promise. Let's start off with people in my life. I'm so fed up with a whole load of people. Every single thing they do is just ticking me off. Like a 'Can-i-punch-you-in-the-face sorta ticked off'. I feel so left out in everything lately. The only time people are contacting me is if they need something. I mean, really, is it so hard for someone to ask a girl how she's going? What's going on in her life? Uh. My home life is really tense lately. My mum & i just aren't seeing eye to eye on anything and we're always at each others throats. I don't call my dad often, if ever, simply because his wife aka my stepmum seems to think their 2 daughters are his only daughters. Truly, stepmums are all the same. My depression and anxiety have hit an all time low and i've been cutting lately. It's been helping, i don't know what it is about cutting but it gives me a temporary feeling that everything is okay. I've also been turning to God alot too. Reading the bible everyday. Actually, just last week i sat down and wrote a letter to Him. I didn't know what to say but i feel i got everything i wanted out, just basically telling God to turn my mess i call my life into something good. I want to find something or someone to live for. I'm starting to think maybe i should just do things for myself these days. I don't want to feel that in every aspect of my life i have to impress somebody. I need to work on that. School has become really hard. My doctor thinks that for my mental health i should take some time off from everything ie working, school and focus on getting better. I'm starting to think i should to but i don't know what my parents would think. They seem to have very high expectations of me, i'd love to know why. My little sisters are all shining in every part of their lives and i'm finding that discouraging. Me being the loser big sister who can't do anything without stressing and worrying. My mum wants to kick me out. Which isn't exactly...joyful. Seeing as we have no family close by. I do have my dad's house but my precious stepmother doesn't want me around. My past is taking a toll on me. I've never dealt with the physical abuse i went through for 9 years. I don't even know how to deal with it. Mum's great advice is to 'Get over it'. I must say i love that she cares so much. Not. My dad thinks i should move out too once i 've finished studying but i don't even think i can finish this banking course whatnot with everything going on. I feel so alone. I can't tell anyone. I gotta admit i truly do hate being an adult. I've seen some of the girls that bullied me in high school around lately, they look so happy. They all have their lives together. University, working, in happy relationships. As to why i can't be happy like that makes me want to have a nervous breakdown. I don't think i've wanted anything else in life other than to be happy. That's not asking for too much is it? God, i feel so pathetic. 18 and can't really do anything with her life. I'm so sorry for this rant once again guys but i'll admit i feel a bit better it's off my chest. Stay yourself lovelies.
Love Amanda,
xoxo.

Things i love Saturday...

I luuuurve dreamcatchers so when i came across these babies....want!

These boots are trendy & stylish and are perfect for Winter right now!

So this week there was one food that was in all of my dinners. Chicken. I have no idea but i've been craving it so much lately!

I've always been a dog over cats girl. This puppy is just too adorable!

This house is wow! I so wish i lived there...

Hi all,

Just touching base. Thinking of changing my blog into a full blown fashion blog! I realise i love fashion and i love blogging so why not mix the two, right?! I'm pretty excited about this change, i'm still figuring out what styles and what it is i exactly want to post but i'm sure i'm going to have fun no matter what!

Hope you're all great and well!

Love Amanda,
xoxo.

Staying positive.

As i mentioned in my previous post, i've been having some trouble with my mental health. I've been really down due to my depression, feeling worthless and like utter crap to be honest. So my mum being the sweetheart she is found these little pics for me to print out and put in my room to remind me how valuable i am. Thought i'd share lovelies! Enjoy.

Long time, no post.

Hi everyone! Wow, it's so refreshing to log on and find i haven't lost any followers (So what if i only have 14?! Best followers ever) unlike my Tumblr.
I hope you have all been so well and life is treating you pretty breezy. Down here in Sydney, Australia we've just hit Winter and let me tell you, it's freezing already! Winter has never been my most favourite season. I don't fully know why though. But being able to drink hot chocolate & marshmellows makes it all the better!

Anyway, not too much to update on. I've been having a little trouble with my mental health lately so i've been referred to a psychologist, lets see what they can do with my messy mind! I had another photoshoot, the photos were terrible. Definitely not an enjoyable experience. Oh and i'm enrolled to start studying business in July! This should be a little easier, fingers crossed anyhow!

So, thats my little hello & ramble. Stay tuned for some photos i'm about to post!

Love Amanda, xoxo.